My masochistic life

A reminder of why...

2005-12-25T19:16:54Z

Today is a reminder of why I hate this season. My mom, dad, sister, g-ma, g-pa, and great grandmother got together to celebrate.Almost immediatley they all started in on me. They insulted the way I have my hair, even though I'm happy with it. It seems that my happiness is a thing that is killed constantly. Then they go on to say that no one will want to come and see me in a salon because of the way I have my hair. I didn't care up until my dad insulted my close Friend Melissa, saying that she is a dyke and that there is no excuse for her hair to be that short. We ended in a yelling match until I punched him in the shoulder, and had my life threatened. so now when next year's hell day comes around, I'm going to stay home.

the dead child who's heart still bleeds

2005-12-15T15:54:07Z

I am currently awaiting my new computer to come home. I am getting Verizon DSL. This is going to be the best christmas ever. I can't wait to get my beastially sexy computer into my bedroom...HENTAI TIME!!!!

long time no write

2005-11-26T16:00:22Z

It has been too long since I wrote last. I now have a new boy friend named Joey, and he is a swet heart. I am too in love with him. I am currently stuck in New port Richie w/out any smokes.well I must go eat now, tiffany

I am the one and only Jesus, worship my bleeding ass.

2005-06-18T23:53:44Z

Hello!I am your sparatically faithful friend in death. As for my congratulatory space, that goes to Dog_Entity, for getting a new job. And to KirbyKiller72, you hate babies, I hate babies, lets go make some bleed!
Hey Mandy, If you ever get a night off, why don't you stay the night with me? that is if you don't already have plans.
I'm sitting here eating a fettucinni disaster! the noodles are good, but the sauce lacks in flavor. I'm probably staying the night here with KirbyKiller72. We're going to party until the sun comes up on friday,canI get a Whoop Whoop?
Anyways I consider the relationship with Ryo to be over. He's gone to Georgia as of today. He promised that he would come back for me in 2 years, but that is highly unlikly, and I don't feel like waiting that long to feel again. well I'm going to go kill some major ass. yours only in death, Gothiccartebear666

bleeding hearts and dry veins

2005-06-14T15:53:25Z

i awken in my room,
a cold sweat dripping from my brow.
You've already left.
After one night of passion, you leave me...
i'm cold, empty, and dead inside.
you tore my innocence away from me,
and then left me to feel the regret.
I hope that you feel it.
I hope you feel my shame.

Yeah, i'm writing my crappy poetry. Cat is drawing a really cute picture next to me.... maybe I'll haveit tatood on my ass... Yeah I'm feeling pretty random right now. I'm hungry, because there was no junk food to load up on... oy! it is hot up in here! I'm sweating my weight in water.
Well in the imnmortal words of Kirby and Kirbykiller72/Cathrine, GOOD TIMES, GOOD TIMES. loving you only in this death we share, gothiccarebear666

Kitty Cat's

2005-06-14T15:06:17Z

I'm sitting here at my friend Cathrines house, listening to 97X and loading up on junk food. She stayed last night^-^. I am hoping with every ounce of my soul that Mandy can come over tonight and stay the night. I miss her ever so much. I wish she lived closer to me so that I could see her when ever. If you Read this, Mandy, please give me a call! well must go for now. luv all, gothiccarebear666

YAY I'm at Mandy's house again!!!!!

2005-05-30T00:18:19Z

I'm over at my best friend Mandy's house again. We're going out tonight to catch a flick, and possibly some grub. I love this weekend! I had Mandy over at my place last night, and we were up until about 7:45 this morning. WE crashed around then, with the alarm set for 9:15a.m., but ended up awakening at almost 1:30 p.m. She asked her mom if I could stay over tonight and got the all clear! well must go for now. In Love and Death, Gothiccarebear666

Funness

2005-05-07T04:55:09Z

I'm over at My Bestest Friend Mandy's house for the night! We just had a guilty pleasure and indulged in our masochistic sides. Now I am filled with a little regret for betraying the promise I made to Will. Atleast I got a shiy load of pleasure from it.

bad week to be alive....

2005-03-22T17:31:46Z

My week has been going down hill since sunday evening. Me, Melissa, and the love of my life, Will went to the Rennisance fair. We had a big blast watching shows and doing thing, with a few romantic moments. when we got home we all relaxed. Dinner came and we pigged out on pizza. Then Will called his mom to tell her what was up. Talking to her he looked so pissed. about 5 minutes after he hung up, he told us what was going on. His mom told him that they were to be moving to Georgia at the end of the week.
For almost 3 days now I have been in tears. I'm about to lose the only thing in my life that keeps me slightly sane. When He's gone so is my sanity, my reason to breathe, my only reason to live.
He says that we can maintian a relation ship, but in his own dead journal he stated that it's not going to work out.
My life is a constant downward spiral, tearing the only happiness and life that I have away from me. I Love Will more than life itself, and when he dumps me, I'll be heart broken. I feel like when he leaves,so does my life. Well I must go for now..... Bruised, bleeding and dying naked on the floor, gcb689
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anger, pain, anddepression

2005-02-25T00:55:33Z

I feel like shit. I'm doubting my skills as a hairdresser because of Rico. I had a really nice client and rico came by as I was almost done and started shooting his shit again. I can't help that I can't afford to go to all these great hairshows and learn every thing. Iwant to, but now I'm not so sure. He always has great Ideas as to what to do with hair,stuff that I can't or won't do.Like this client wanted a ton of volume on the top, I tried, and Rico came inand tried to "help". His version of help is "I'm better than you are, so I'll do your client, get the credit, the tip, and 'help' you.". I can't stand his crap anymore.It's just pissing me off. I'm about to give up here, so that I don't have to feel like a loser around my clients. Oh well, I mightas well give up hair and become a carny... atleast aI won't have to put up with him then...... g2g.... gothiccarebear689

Sonstag ist hier nicht!!!

2005-02-19T16:27:37Z

ich mochte fur sonstag zu gehst hier NUN! LOL, mein liebe ist zu jetzund Ich bin im schule, so du weissen? OW! Blod kopf,Ich hasse es! Ich bin gehen nun, Viel Lieben zu alles!!!! gothiccarebear689

My crappy day

2004-08-05T21:39:57Z

Ugh!!!!! my dad is being a pain in my ass. he keeps pulling a john kerry on me. one minute it's like go get it, then it's don't you dare drop out, then it's do what you feel is best for you. I can't tell when this b/s is going to stop, but i hope soon.........
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Name: Tiffany W. Age: 16 dob:5/88 g2g...

The total loss of my mind...

2004-08-05T01:27:04Z

I swear that I have totally lost my mind. I'm only sleeping 1/2 an hour a night, I'm feeling sicker and sicker, and I'm almost out of smokes... I swear that if any body wants to fight an irritable teenager right now, I'm open for it... I wish that tomorrow would just hurry up and get here, I miss school so much, the only thing keeping my sanity right now is this cosmotology school. The people here are nice gag gothiccarebear666

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2004-07-21T21:05:54Z

oh so tired, will this ever end?Gawd, I miss Manda(Tainted Love)... not much else...gothiccarebear666